Thanks for sharing your private problems with us.  It seems you've been
badly hurt in the past.  I am sorry to hear about it.  I am sure this is not
*consistency* which gets you into more trouble, Richard.  A good
psychiatrist should be able to help you.  Believe me, it's worth it.
Regards, Tadeusz (Tad) Niwinski from planet TeTa
tad@teta.ai   http://www.teta.ai   (604) 985-4159