virus: Form and Function

Brett Lane Robertson (unameit@tctc.com)
Thu, 10 Jul 1997 20:56:58 -0500


Id is not the same as ego--I keep two separate terms. Their relationship is
similar to that of "form" and "function." The points at which they are
ideally one are "moving simultaneous centers", "abstract cores", "planetary
alignments" (to use some metaphysical terms I've picked up here and there:
"Moving simultaneous center" is an idea I got from a James Dickey novel
called "Annihilam"(sp?)"..."abstract core" from Castaneda, "planetary
alignment" I made up to express the idea of simultaneity--that things are
aligned in non-linear fashion), "pure ideal", and "pure idea". Yes, these
points are both variations OF and variations FROM id--they are the same but
different.

Ego is self-aware (reflexive), it must not only exist, it must reflect this
existence--or in terms of a graphic representation*, it must repeat itself
either once across time or one more time. In this way it is constructed by
and/or constructs the self; although self is a given from the beginning
point--or id, it is not aware of itself as self and as such does not exist.
Id is represented in this graph as the perfect idea of self, ego as
awareness of this idea--to say that either is "self constructed" may be
misleading as neither can construct a self out of something which does not
exist. Ego is self validating in that it is reflexive: Id validates itself
through ego (but has a pre-existing form which becomes the function of ego).

The important point is that ego as self validating--in the earlier sense--is
ego which is somehow separated from id...or an ideal which is independent of
the original idea. Using ego this way is sarcastic. Id exists (the idea);
ego exists (the ideal); the idea ( "I Think") and the ideal ("I Am") are
both Cartesian givens--and so is "sum" (translated "therefore I am", or
"self"): The equation "I Think" plus "I Am" equals "Therefore I Am" show
three states of being; the id state (I think), the ego state (I am), and the
"sum" state (THEREFORE I Am). "Sum" implies yet another state of reflection
from that of id and ego--the state of being which is aware of both id and ego.

"Sum" cannot exist as idea and ideal through the self unless id = ego =
self. This only occurs through simultaneity because--although the 3 are
transcendent qualities of the same function--they manifest in different
forms...self (this time id), reflection of self (ego), and self-reflection
(sum). Which is to say that self has become id and ego has become self
reflection...self dissolves...ego dissolves...id becomes the ideal gazing
upon itself (an eye looking at itself). This relationship can be seen in
graphic form as a parabola with an infinitely small tail trailing off toward
the original idea, an infinitely large tail trailing off toward the ideal
and with the bulk of the curve encompassing the group at the point of "self"
but never reaching the central axis of self. This forms a cage-like matrix
which keeps all manifestations of being separate and inter-related.

All manifestations are existent--which is to say they do not have to be
externally validated.

* If id is the original idea which is carried accross time x number of
times (time being a horizontal line and times being a vertical line),
then the ideal--ego represented accross time to "now" (the self) and
through "x times" (the group)--is the sum of the original idea and it's
external representation minus the group and the self.

Brett

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